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Sharron Singleton
Five Poems

Sarah Giragosian
Five Poems

Jenna Kilic
Five Poems

Kristina McDonald
Five Poems

Toni Hanner
Five Poems

Annie Mascorro
Five Poems

Brittney Corrigan
Three Poems

S. E. Hudgens
Four Poems

Ali Doerscher
Four Poems

David Sloan
Three Poems

Olivia Cole
Five Poems

Lucy M. Logsdon
Four Poems

Marc Pietrzykowski
Four Poems

Donna Levine Gershon
Five Poems

Eva Heisler
The Olden Days

Stephanie Rose Adams
Five Poems

Jill Kelly
Five Encounters

Ben Bever
Five Poems

Michael Hugh Lythgoe
Five Poems

Arlene Zide
Three Poems

Harry Bauld
Five Poems

Lisa Zerkle
Four Poems

Peter Mishler
Five Poems

Tim Hawkins
Five Poems

Marqus Bobesich
Four Poems

Abigail Templeton-Greene
Five Poems

Eric Duenez
Five Poems

Anne Graue
Five Poems

Susan Laughter Meyers
Five Poems

Peter Kahn
Two Poems

D. Ellis Phelps
Five Poems

Linda Sonia Miller
The Kingdom

Nicklaus Wenzel
Skagit River

Holly Cian
Five Poems

Susan Morse
Five Poems

Daniel Lassell
Five Poems

Svetlana Lavochkina
Temperate Zones

Daniel Sinderson
Three Poems

Catherine Garland
Five Poems

Michael Fleming
Five Poems

Toni Hanner

Le Bugue

An old woman (here you may not ask)

cranks her body up from the bench


submerged only days ago. The Vézère

has dropped to green once more, swarms of bees


cluster around our heads as we cross

the bridge. Cars chug past below on the quai,


released from the flood. The woman adjusts

her blouse, her fruit-colored hair. Walks,


a little bent, a little slow, away. I think of you,

sister, there is not a moment when I do not.


You go with me, in my pockets, in each slender

joy. I carry you up cobbled hills and eye for you


the shirtless workman repairing a stone wall

that has plunged down the hillside into fields


shouting with purple iris, wisteria,

yellow mustard. Every dog smiles for you,


and the birds—swifts and magpies,

sparrows singing in French


and the little tuxedo’d dipper riding the flood

on a broken branch, all these swoop and dive


for you, speak your name and watch me

for signs of you with round black eyes.



Le Bugue to Paris

Leaving Le Bugue, the philanthropy of rain

returns, fat clouds overflowing, filling the Vézère


once more. I wish I had your picture here with me,

posed for the cruise ship’s photographer,


embroidered blouses we bought for pennies

from the impenetrable Indians at Gatun Lake,


the big rimless glasses we wore in the ’80s,

our acrylic nails and turquoise


eye shadow. I was your shipmate then,

my 40th birthday lay in wait, a stone


that would wedge itself between us

for years. It’s taken death to shift it,


to bring us all the way back—our father,

cousin, aunt, brother. I’ve seen you


three times in the past year, each an unbearable

loss. The last time, I helped you from your bed


to the bathroom, washed and fed you,

stroking your white head as if you were a child,


crooning sweetheart, sweetheart.



The Houses of the Dead

for Franny


I want to be happy again, to stop thinking

about the dog on the floor at the side of the bed,


the dog who is only an outline, a dog-shape

made with a black Marks-A-Lot with no


corporeal body, no face. I want to stop

thinking about the scaly thing beginning,


always just beginning, to wind up the white

iron leg at the bottom of the bed, tiny bat’s wings


unfurled behind its flat head, tongue searching the air.

This morning at the end of sleep I dropped by your house,



stopped in for a chat and a cup of tea, the way I imagine

I remember doing when I lived just a few blocks away


but this time your granddaughter was there at your kitchen

table, you were gone, and when I resumed my walk I realized


you would always be gone and there would be no more of you

and me, and in my sleep, I dropped to the curb and howled


in that way I do not when I’m awake because the part of me

watching accuses me of being melodramatic


and when I woke I thought I must have made a sound

but my husband did not notice.



The city knows nothing, in the summer

it is molten, the asphalt gummy


beneath our shoes, everyone gathers up their cucumbers

and corkscrews and goes off to the islands


where the azure seas soothe and the ripe sun

blushes the shoulders of clerks and housewives,


where fir trees remind them that there once

was a life before Little League and diaper service,


the city’s leftovers baking on sidewalks, the little houses

in the old neighborhoods quietly flaking paint,


the old men and old women who remain being removed,

one by one, taken in ambulance or hearse,


leaving the granddaughters to clear away the rubble

and hand out corroded jewelry from the middle


of the last century no one really wants. The dogs will go

to new cities, the cats will fend for themselves.


I will not walk by your house again,

it’s been twenty years since we lived so close together,


I began losing you when I left that city you loved,

the strands that held us stretched and frayed.



And the scaly thing, the thing with fluttering wings,

I will get used to it, it will be my dog and follow me


faithfully through the streets of the city where I live without you.

I will feed it flecks of gold I find in the houses of the dead.



Weather

Sunday morning, waking to the slaughter,

the inconsolable smells, the smothering owlish light,


sixteen dead bolts on the door cannot blind us

to the stacking, bristling idiot mounds, horses


with their limbs ablaze, the piazza filled with smoke,

we try to disappear but all the roads are blocked


      fascinated by the birdcage, the ash at the end of my mother’s

      Kool, the runes on our kitchen linoleum, a bit of wither


under the bridge, suspended, the cables,

the rust, under the parking lot, the worm,


the ripening, under the narcotic sky, under the flames,

the weather builds, one egret at a time, plodding in


on snowshoes and waterskis, tossing pomegranates

to the crowds gathered to watch the drizzle set fire


to the dwarf shackled to the bike rack on the Herengracht.

The magpies gather like pickpockets, count your hands, hero,


      when I was four I had a brother, I buried

      my face in his sheets a cat rolling in grass


      when I was four I had a sister bouffant and gauze,

      far away in the never-never of our house


wasp down the soprano’s voice through the old black telephone,

the clacking bones of larkspur, the rot breaking through,


erupting, chewing and casting, leaving a trail, a wandering bruise,

the leaves of the birch across the intersection signaling wildly in the wind.



Elegy for December

This is an elegy for everyone who’s gotten in the way

this year. In the way of a bullet, in the way of a drunk,

in the way of a rampaging warlord or an invasion of cancer.


This is an elegy for those riding the #52 bus every day,

riding the bus to Fred Meyer for diapers and a 12-pack

of Diet Coke. For everyone who mucks through


the wet snow that fell all morning, slicking the black pavement

and drowning the sleeping bags of the homeless.

This is an elegy for the ones we lost, the ones who grew old


suddenly and died in spite of all our holding on,

this is for the way we dug our heels into the earth, the way

we heaved and yanked on the lines that broke even so,


the boat that drifted away without us. This is an elegy

for Ryan who told me Christmas is an ordeal

and for Marilyn in her Santa Claus hat,


and it is for everyone in the middle, dusting

banisters, pouring wine, pulling on damp work boots,

for everyone reading this poem or any other poem.


I give you my kind intentions, all I have really,

and this leafless maple outside my window

wearing a cloak of white, just for today.


Toni Hanner’s poems appear in Yellow Medicine Review, Alehouse, Calyx, Gargoyle, and others. She is a member of Eugene’s Red Sofa Poets and Port Townsend’s Madrona Writers. She had two books published in 2012: The Ravelling Braid from Tebot Bach, and a chapbook of surrealist poems, Gertrude Poems and Other Objects from Traprock Books. Gertrude was selected by Mary Jo Bang as a finalist for the 2013 Oregon Book Award.

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